17 June 2015

What I've learned from having shingles = so far



What I'm learning through constant pain, exhaustion and being mostly in bed with shingles.

I have known to appreciate life and live fully every moment. To really love the gift of life and how precious each day is.  I've learned many hard lessons. I've seen my life change in one single flash several times. I've watched a loved friend die in seconds next to me. I've been surprised with a renal artery aneurysm and told I might not survive, best to make my plans and prepare before my surgery. 
I've seen long time friendships blow away when they didn't like my happy attitude and positive outlook on life. 

I've said for years that any given moment can change your life. I know with my whole heart this is true. I also believe your life can change with amazing goodness in one moment as well. I met and married my husband in ten days. We have now been married over 8 years. I've never had children so my dogs have always been my fur babies. I know the pure love + happiness these babies bring to my world are gifts. Every single day little Pearl Button surprises me with moments of joy. 

Being down and healing with insanely painful shingles makes me be very still. I'm not able to create. Creating is like breathing for me. I feel lost without it. I pray for moments to sit up and create anything. I've started stitching by hand a little which is calming and meditation for me.

I'm always aware of being grateful. I'm grateful for having a great doctor. I'm grateful for our health insurance. I'm super lucky to live in Galena where new friends care for me and have embraced me with genuine kindness. I'm grateful for all of the unconditional love that surrounds me from friends both old and new. I am loved. I am cherished. I am wildly blessed. 

So what are some new lessons that I'm learning while healing from shingles? 

Mostly I really need to practice balance and manage my stress better. 

Letting go of internal struggles that I keep dragging around with me. Like extra heavy bags that have never served me. 

So my action plan is this. Writing down steps and looking at how I can architect my life to fill it up with more moments that love me and my soul. Practicing leaving behind the fears of not knowing and trying to control these. Most of my fears center around not being able to earn the income I once had with my new lines of ME (knowing I must do what I love). I have fear around not being able to control my mothers chronic health issues. Some of these fears are realistic and some are just mind traps I've fallen into.

Being mindful. Having new affirmations surround me. 

For now I'm going to continue resting until this horrible pain leaves my body. I know that my mind is healing as well. I will be gifted with a new fresh daily outlook on balance and self love. I know that there are many more gifts I'm being given right now in this space and time that will come to me. I will process as they show up❤️ I plan to welcome each one and make friends with them so I can continue to love more, to live more fully and to be balanced in my heart and soul. 

Practicing the fine art of noticing, knowing and making a difference every single day! 

28 May 2015

the path i followed = how dreams grew for me.

90 cards arrived from printer = excitement overload

build a booth exactly like the one in NYC in our living room

Rent a van and drive across the country to NYC

National Stationery Show booth BEFORE

Get lucky and have 2 cards chosen for BEST NEW PRODUCT categories

FINISHED BOOTH before the crowds arrive.

View from our living room. We are home.
Two years ago this May I had a dream to create my own line of greeting cards, paper products and showcase them in NYC at the National Stationery Show. In order to make this happen I would need money. So after loving my home of 17 years my hubby and I decided to sell it. Get the equity out of the home and start fresh with dreams. We moved to Sarasota FL with big hopes of starting this path of dog inspired goods. We tried but, this was not to be our place. We moved to Siesta Key (not far from our first rental but, close to the #1 beach in the USA) thinking this would be the connection. Nope. So we stayed for a little over one year and moved to a city I have been smitten with since I was in 6th grade, Galena IL.

We arrived in Galena in October. In Dec I  sent samples of my artwork to the National Stationery Show division called Fresh ( a jury picks who gets in ) I got in. Starting in Jan I thought I best get busy and start designing this line.

In four months I designed over 90 cards - all illustrated, painted, hand lettering, designed by me. I had no assistants (my hubby and my parents) I paid no one to help me with all of this creative and work except one person at the last minute (I hired a darling writer to write my press release) impossible for me to write about myself. He he he.

I cannot begin to tell you the amount of endless days went into this creation of Pearl Button's World.

I showed up in NYC I faced my anxieties of being in front of my creative. No panic attacks. Hard stuff for me. I did it. I was present and gracious and thrilled to be standing in my dream. Yes, at times it was surreal and overwhelming to think of all it took to be standing there in that time and space.

The show went really well for me. I have several good orders from shops that really got me. I also have several licensing conversations in the works. Super positive potential and more hard work to complete. I am following up with everything and everyone as that is part of the show. I have learned so very much, I have moved out of my comfort zone and into a new launch of me.

I am proud of myself. I worked really hard next to my hubby who supports me with wisdom and hard work too. This dream took years to make happen. This dream will continue to take big thinking and more more more dreaming even bigger. I am up for this challenge and very excited about it all.

My new website will launch very soon and my etsy shop will be loaded with goods.

I live in Galena now with my hubby and our little girl Pearl Button. We are happy, we have started to find a community of like souls who want to know us and are so so nice. Our travels in the past two years have been crazy nuts goofy and honestly the lessons I have learned and creative that I have found in myself is incredible. I am one lucky girl.

Here's to knowing how precious life is and busting down everything for dreams.

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27 April 2015

what it takes to make a life long dream come true = by me

love with all my soul = Pearl Button

paint, illustrate, create more, layer more, be mindful

notice the path of my life that has me here right NOW

styling spaces = oh i love this stuff = watch out booth #1559 NYChttps://www.facebook.com/kelli.maykrenz

get published A LOT and get your artwork on the cover

be true to yourself = be raw and be seen
It has been way to long since I blogged. My days turn into nights into weeks into months lately.
I am good with that. I am grateful for that. I am so insanely blessed to be right here, right now and to really notice how very lucky I am.

Truth. I have created my own luck. I have worked seriously hard to be in this very place and time.
I have climbed a whole bunch of big scary mountains. Mountains that had winding paths of betrayal,
death, life changing illness, self doubt, anxiety, panic attacks and more self doubt. I have been an artist my entire life. I have created for fortune 500 companies for many many years. I have no real ego. Truth. I care most about loving and giving and yes, being loved back.

I thought it might be nice to share some bits of what I have done to arrive at this very space in time to get to my dream of debuting my line of ME at the National Stationary Show. I know I make it look easy as I stay positive and keep my life in good energy. I practice daily at showing up to do the really hard work. I know I am lucky to be given gifts and I am meant to share.

It took me so very many years and so much help from loves in my life to get me here.

We have sold a home I adored to be able to have money to design just for me. I let go of clients and income that I depended on to live. I have trusted in being good and giving and creating in life.

In the past two years come this May. We have sold 80 percent of everything we owned (with my darling hubby supporting and working with me to make this happen). We have moved from Minneapolis to Sarasota Florida then near the beach Siesta Key and now to Galena Illinois. I have created enough art to submit and be published in 8 magazines, continued working on my favorite clients in Minneapolis (okay, I need some income) and being mindful of having a good life, a true and loving marriage, being a good daughter, friend and showing up.

I am seeing the light of our travels to NYC on May 12th. I still have to reach the top of the mountain. Believe me I have tons of work to do to get there. I can honestly say (and I am SO hard on myself) but, I have 80 cards that I adore and other cool products for the show.

I hope that I can inspire one person to really go for your dream. No matter how big or small. We are blessed with one life (that I know of) and it matters that we show up and continue to love ourselves.

I cannot thank my hubby enough for believing in me. I really am very lucky. Love sweet love. Shine.


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17 March 2015

being mindful of my path to the National Stationary Show. grateful me.

details coming together to create my booth for the nss ny 2015

card line, prints, fabrics and my love of gold

gold leaf meets Pearl Button's World of magic

oh i gush for Pearl button's

moments are all we have to cherish to love a life worth living

my muse = Pearl Button
Deep in the moments of designing, creating, planning, dreaming and building my dream.
The National Stationary Show is in New York at the Javitz center May 17, 18, 19, 20. I will be there.
My booth is in the new section (as of last year) it is juried and called Fresh. I am honored and lucky to have been chosen. Excited for this journey in my life.

I will debuting my new line of Pearl Button's World cards, prints and fabric. I am creating like a crazy person who has one thing in mind = create designs that make me smile, happy and feel good so that others will find joy in my art. I pray that my love, passion and goofy love of living translates to others in my booth. I pray that I am aware of noticing my lucky days of being here alive and healthy.

My mission statement is this.
A world that believes all great things are possible. Where happiness & silly moments matter most. Knowing that sharing and giving fills the soul with life-changing goodness. In Pearl Button's world we celebrate the precious everyday.

My wish is to be known for giving love and celebrating life. I have lived and had many hard mountains to climb. My self has been left with scars to show my strength and brave soul. This has all brought me to this very time and place where I am ready to SHINE my very brightest.

Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for following my heart here on this blog. Thank you for knowing that kindness, love and waking each day is what life is all about.

Gratefully I breathe.

18 February 2015

a calling. i answered. i am home.

blocks from the house we live in. Grants home.

history. yep, it makes my life better.

shadows, trails, sunshine, space wide open fields. yes, please.
When I was in 6th grade my school took a trip to visit the home of Ulysses S. Grant. I remember being smitten with this tiny little home. I remember the fake cherries in a bowl on the table. I remember thinking this is where I want to live (okay, not in the little house) the city of Galena.

Funny how the calling of my soul has been to live here for what seems like forever. We moved mountains and moved here from Siesta Key Florida. I know most think we are crazy. I do not feel crazy at all. I feel nurtured by the history everywhere I walk. I am so excited to see more then strip malls. I am thrilled with Galena. Okay, so the best of both worlds would be to have a little place on the beach in St. Pete too. Dreams still marching strong in my life.

I am drawn to this little house pictured above. It is two blocks from the house we live in. I visited today. It is clearly closed for winter. I peered into the windows and I filled with glee for on the little wooden table was a bowl with fake cherries. YES, I felt home.

There is a knowing in our souls. It matters to follow your heart. No matter how many opinions differ. Do it following your calling. Face every fear. I am still facing mine but, I happily say I am getting better. Grateful living in Galena.

more on grateful living and my art filled life here 

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15 February 2015

creating when it's not easy

layers of paints, tissues, inks, drawings, paper, gold leaf

lately i am marveling at white ink on gold

for me there will always be threads
Today I realized that when big stuff in life happens most of the time my escape is creating. Once in a very great while I freeze. I simply do not want to create or I try and it feels scattered. My life lately has been full of real stuff that is not easy. I practice the daily art of positive thoughtful living. I practice overcoming anxiety that is fresh at times. I follow my own self care habits that bring comfort and then I rest. I sleep. I sleep when it feels too much.

I know that all creatives share in the steps of finding our ways when it's not easy.

Tonight I wanted to share some helpful guides for me in my life. In hopes that I might help just one soul have some new ideas to perhaps practice.

Guide I created for me.
* I journal. I simply write, scribble anything and everything (which is a lot) that is in my head. I feel free to write everything down. No judgements of myself here. This journal is sacred healing life filling stuff.

* I walk. Yes, exercise in any way helps my head. Nature does it for me. I've noticed with the temps being super cold here in Illinois lately that I miss my big long walks. My head missed the space they clear for it. I am sure my little dog Pearl Button misses them too.

* I sleep. I nap. I do not beat myself up for needing more rest. This is a lesson I practice. No telling yourself that you are lesser for needing a rest. GO REST.

* I listen to music. Music that matches my mood. Almost always a song or two can take me out of my head space, if even for a little while.

* I practice not thinking too far into the future. This one is tricky. This one takes a bunch of practice.
I believe we only have this moment for sure. Any given moment can change your life. In big magical soul flipping ways.

I am practicing my life in a thoughtful way. I love then I love more. First of all loving me the very most I know how.


07 February 2015

Love Sale in my Etsy Shop 40% off Art








In honor of LOVE. One of my most favorite things to do is LOVE BIG. I am having a LOVE ME sale in my etsy shop. 40% off my original artwork.

I often find amazing art that I cannot afford to buy. I sometimes wish original great art was more affordable. Believe me I live the life of the starving artist so I know that we as artists need to earn a living and that the time, talent and love we gush into our art is worth tons.

I also believe that when we feel something strongly we need to bless that feeling. For me it's having this LOVE ME sale in my etsy shop.

I am grateful that I live my life as an artist. For me creating is like breathing. Naturally I adore giving and loving others. Enjoy my friends. Thank you for enjoying what I do.

Coupon Code is loveme15
to received 40% off of your purchase

link to my etsy shop is right here.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/kellimay


05 February 2015

my passion for loving

my love for vintage aged meets hand sewn art

mixed media meets here with layers of paints, illustration and glee

love notes inside of box featured in Stampington Life magazine 2015 Feb

stitched yummy layers wrap everything up

handmade Valentines all in a row 

my passion for loving. just a few treats i had made and sent into possibly being published in Stamping and Company magazine. Lucky for me several of my items have been published this month celebrating love sweet love.

It's easy to surround yourself with the things that make your heart skip a happy beat. It does not have to cost a lot of money. Really it just takes noticing what makes you feel joy. I love all things in nature and I love history. So I tend to collect vintage pieces and I adore making pieces that are new look vintage.

I have always loved Valentines Day. I remember growing up I would decorate a shoe box and slice a little opening in the top. Then I would proudly (ever so shy I was) take it to school and sit it on my desk. Each year (I went to school with the same kids from elementary to high school) I would wish and hope that the two cutest boys would leave me a Valentine. I can honestly say I never received one from either boy. I continued to wish and still adored all of the sweet cut out designs with my friends names on the back. To this day I still have a few of these.

Sometimes I wish I could do this again. Create the box march it proudly to where my friends are all gathered and see the magical wishes that get dropped inside. Perhaps this is why I adore creating note cards, letters, snail mail, packages and wishes for others.

Fond memories of hoping the right boy would give me a Valentine.

Little did I know back then it takes years to find the right Valentine and when you do hold on tight and surround them with love sweet love.

I have handmade Valentines in my etsy shop for sale. The prices are super good. Thank you to those of you who have ordered already.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/kellimay

03 February 2015

layers making up my life and my art

building layers of painting, illustrations, clips of my world, vintage flowers

adding gold leaf for added goodness, white illustration work

watercolors, acrylic inks, india ink, illustration joy

paints, illustrations, tissues, stitched together
Today I was noticing my methods to building art. I have always been a lover of details, textiles, fonts, colors colliding together. My background is heavy in graphic design and illustration. I am noticing how I have always found a way in my computer generated designs to introduce elements of hand created artwork. I like this about me. Funny how we do something for so long it is just the way we do it. Not really thinking just doing. I find that when I get completely out of my head and just create it all flows out of me.

I am building a collection to present this year at the National Stationary Show in NYC in May - a new division called Fresh. Juried section and smaller I like this. Starting out designing my cards I thought "however do I do this?" Funny I have been doing this for decades. I paint and draw and layer and sew and layer more and then find the words that spill from me until I have a piece that makes me feel original and good. Something worth leaving behind in the world.

My goals are to show up in NYC with lots of new designs, pride in my booth style and in me. Being mindful of the truth of being me. Staying true to all that I am and all that I want to leave behind.

I am praying that others will be drawn to my style, my gifts and my messaging. Continuing the path of knowing that I am meant to do exactly what I am doing in this very time and space.


30 January 2015

handmade valentines by me

details, layers, gold leaf $35.00

layers of love found here for $35.00

gold leaf heart with wings layered on happy brights $35.00

love sacred love found here for $35.00

collage i love - sweetheart yummy

layers of love stitched here $15.00

really, yes only $15.00

large matchbox all original graphics and vintage bits $25.00

gorgeous hand made heart box for hiding treasures $24.00

crazy pretty vintage only $22.00
I love celebrations. I love being able to create tons of art many styles, mediums all filled with the joy I live to express. So my etsy shop is stocked with very affordable originals created by me for you to give or collect.

So much to learn and do and create just wanting to keep the fresh, love of creating alive for me and price my art for others to collect and enjoy.

Thank you for being here and liking what I do. It matters to me. I notice you. Love sweet Love.

Link to my etsy shop just in case you see something that makes your heart beat a little faster.
https://www.etsy.com/shop/kellimay