29 October 2014
hello its me and i am back in my new studio. surrounded by boxes some unpacked. still feeling the space and realizing i moved across the country again. we have now moved three times in the past 2 years. i am ready to not move for a bit. i am full of positive wonder about life and filling mine up with as much goodness and dream filling as possible. i will say this last move has zapped me in many ways i did not expect. slowly i will rebuild my energies and once again be creating in the studio.
i am so aware of what is around me more then usual as everything seems so different. the energies in this home are wonderful, the light is amazing. i love the history and charm that i see absolutely everywhere.
the big questions i am pondering are =
* how did the dream to Florida not work like i so (knew in my heart) would. i have lists of course. so many dreams around that move. most of the ones i planned did not happen. i was gifted an entire new set of blessings - bigger and better then i could have dreamed.
* letting go of what i thought was and is not. that is one for the books. i shall be working on this for some time. dancing with the emotions all around.
* realizing that the most important in life is health. so getting me in full energies is a must.
* can i really get all of my products together and into the world = YES I CAN. YES I WILL.
so i know this for certain. i need to keep designing and printing and getting my cards and other dreamy projects ready to send out to others. this is a must as all along moving from minneapolis to florida and from florida to galena = one dream was constant.
little wishes turning into big dreams = love your life. it matters the most!
23 September 2014
|entire piece of art|
|details detail oh i love those little details|
|lots of tiny illustration work|
Today I had a really big dream come true. I worked and envisioned and built a dream board around my intentions and I am marching down the list. Checking them off one by one.
I cannot begin to gush how thrilled, excited, grateful, honored I am.
Please pop over and read the story. I have a full tutorial about how I created this dream and this piece of art.
Thank you Stampington for seeing beauty in what I create and finding my art in this big world.
19 September 2014
|me at five or so. i had this hair cut until i was 17.|
|professional photo taken of me at 30 years old.|
I grew up in a tiny river town in Iowa. I am an only child. I have very loving, gracious, proud parents who love me crazy good stuff. I was pretty sheltered in this little town. I loved the simple nature of this little town. I loved flowers, making things pretty, drawing, creating neat spaces for my barbies to live in, dolls (I so loved dolls) dogs, rabbits. My little friends were like sisters. I loved the river and boating on the Mississippi River. Trying to express I was brought up going to Sunday school, respecting others and a pretty good person.
Somehow growing up in this small town I knew I had to move and get to a big city.
I went to college and graduated with a fine arts degree. I kept moving to big cities and creating. I grew as an artist and person.
I married at 29 (not super young) I married the wrong person. I stayed in a very ugly marriage for 11 years. It was not the good stuff you wish for. I escaped in my art world. It worked. I was very successful and noticed for my design talents.
I write this to give history of me prior to a really terrible event happening. I ended up in a very love less marriage, I ended up at 39 with the renal aneurysm (I have posted about this one) Knowing that I might not survive I made a deal with God = please let me live and I will change my life. I will get out of a love less marriage. I will face the world and let my marriage go.
I did it. I confronted my husband for the zillion one millionth time. This time he admitted that he was gay. Yes, I married a man that was gay. That is why he was loveless in so very many ways. At 40 I divorced.
Tonight is the eve of my ex husbands next marriage. This time he is marrying a man. I have no issues with sexual preference. I do have major issues with lying. Lies are some of the most horrible things in the world. They destroy faith and love and hope. Faith, love and hope can be found, healed and re learned with lots of good energy around you. I know this in every way possible.
This post is mainly for me to share hope. I am realizing how much my soul is good.
I am healed and a strong brave soul for surviving the many things I have.
I am blessed beyond to be loved for real by my hubby. I am beloved by many who have no clue the paths I have walked. I feel like my life is for sharing, helping, creating goodness and gushing it into the world. So I am sharing me. I am happy and grateful for my spirit and soul. Knowing.
My wish is that this post helps a few people in ways that are needed. Love sweet love.
16 September 2014
|"let the beauty we love be what we do" Rumi|
|Iris Dement - singer songwriter|
|yes, we must first really love ourselves.|
I have been listening to tons of music from my past. I use to listen to tons of Iris Dement, James Taylor, Shawn Colvin, Patty Griffin, French music, old jazz standards. The list goes on and on. Music is such a safe place to land when your days are long and things seems hard. It is just a natural escape.
Balancing the packing and my studio deadlines is all consuming. I am wanting some head space of nothing. Just nothing at all. I daydream lately about decorating our Christmas tree this year. I know it will be snowy, I know we will go cut one down, I know that I will not buy enough lights first trip to the store (I tend to over light the tree) It thrills me to have a season change again in my life. I miss it. I do so love the ocean and being there on Christmas day is something to behold.
This year will be so different from last. I am forever grateful for my life. Even when days are long and harder then most I am giddy with grace for my very blessed life.
Link here for music by Iris Dement - such a beautifully talented singer songwriter
09 September 2014
|coming into my own. seeing the 12 year mark. knowing.|
|i was saved for a reason. knowing.|
|dreams keep unfolding. i am here and ready. knowing.|
|tiny old photo of me 12 years ago.|
My life changed forever. Right in this time and place it was forever changed.
I met with my Vascular surgeon who said it was very possible and likely that I would not survive the surgery. Fate right there in the cold white office on the table I heard words that were very real. I asked if I would live again. He said I cannot promise you this, your aneurysm is wrapped around your right kidney and very tricky to know how we can help you. Okay, so he shot me straight news.
Soon after I had my life laid out in front of me and I went into the hospital for my surgery. I remember riding in the car and thinking I must live I want to feel the wind on my face again. I walked into the hospital and looked up seeing the blue sky and puffy white clouds mixed with the wind and prayed again. Let me live, I have big stuff to do. Really big stuff. Let me live.
After a very long surgery with a team of very talented surgeons. I woke up the next morning in ICU.
Hooked up to every sort of machine = breathing. I kept asking the ICU nurse where I was. YES, I was ALIVE. I could do the rest. I had life.
Ended up I had probably been born with this aneurysm and as I grew so did it. It had wrapped around my right kidney. My right kidney was mostly gone (thus being so sick from toxins etc) I was saved with veins from my left leg rebuilding my renal artery. Yes, very invasive surgery. Lots of big time surgery stuff. I am so forever grateful for my scars both mentally and physically. I lived.
I still have testing to make sure the artery stays open as it is not the one I was born with it is thinner.
I am proud delighted to say that I am a miracle. My life was saved. I get to go big things with great big love. I am trying with all that I know to live a grateful, giving, art filled life. I am sharing what I know and possible teach others.
I know that I have big love to get into the universe. I am doing this with my art and my life. I want bigger. I want to be noticed on a grand scale all because I want to share joy, love and the gift of living with others.
Gratefully celebrating me. ME alive. ME. Oh, how very lucky, beloved, blessed I am.
06 September 2014
|section from a large painting.|
|section from a large painting.|
|section from a large painting.|
i have been creating like a crazy person over for the past several months. as i look around my studio i see that i have over twenty original pieces of art just stacked up on my tables. wow. i thought to myself that i am have really been sharing lots of me on surfaces everywhere in my studio. i have created on canvas, boards, scraps of papers, notebook covers, my journal = really i am starting to think no surface is safe.
i have long wanted to create for me. just take the time to play and see and feel all on surfaces. the tricky part then comes the sharing. i no longer feel like the opinions or judgements can touch how i create. i know that i am truly spilling from me. there is such a gift in this. i am grateful each and everyday for art in me. so so grateful.
these pieces are newly listed and most affordable in my etsy shop found here.
04 September 2014
|each tiny detail was lovingly thoughtful and precious.|
|seriously cool artwork by Diana D. Darden. FOR ME.|
|some of my most favorite things EVER tiny pieces of bits. FOR ME.|
|the notes, ribbons, treats both tiny and big. FOR ME.|
|insanely gorgeous artwork by Diana D. Darden. FOR ME.|
Quick story of our friendship. I have long admired Diana's artwork. I had seen it in galleries and online and always was blown away with her attention to details and thoughtful art. I never really researched where she lived or anything = I just loved her art. So fast forward to me moving from Minneapolis to Sarasota. I find Diana on facebook = again I am blown away by her talents and joy she adds to all of her artwork. Lucky me we become friends. We have a great connection for loving tiny details, trims, ribbons, images etc. We started by trading bits from our studios with each other.
I find out that all along she was living in Minneapolis the entire time I lived there. WHAT!
Lesson learned for me to seek like souls right when i see them in my world.
I am also very happy to say that I love designing her business cards and marketing materials.
What joy to design for a talented friend. Another blessing.
So with a gracious gushing heart I post these photos and write about the gift of precious artists in my life who are also beautiful friends.
Thank you Diana. I am humbled by your generous spirit and crazy sweet happy gifts. These are the very best of times. I am lucky to know you and be your friend. I am sending universal love and goodness to you today, this moment and always.
Please check out her precious artwork below are a few links.
02 September 2014
|created the box with layers of papers then painting and more layers.|
|oh the love of details|
|she loved beauty = i do i do|
|grateful for kindred spirits|
|happiness combo platter = 3 gifts ready to mail|
So I created three fun packages today. I am happy to say in the midst of a very busy studio day and packing. So much of life is often over looked. I love having the ability to take time to be grateful and gush out into the world.
Grab the gifts of friends and like minds. It matters. I have learned this past year about community of like souls. I have been on this beautiful key living, creating and facing every bit of anxiety, fear and doubt. I have been very alone (thank goodness for my hubby and sweet little dog Pearl Button).
Prior to moving across the country I was lucky to have several friends to call and instantly have community. I have had big surprises this past year. I am grateful for the learning however painful the lessons. I am growing stronger, braver and getting my messages into the big world.
I matter. What I create matters. I am good at being me. If a handful of people see me truly get me that is plenty. More then enough. I wake up wanting to gush joy and gratitude for my life, and that is perfectly fine. It's who I am. I am just swell with me.
Happy is the very best path in life. Take it, you can make it thru most days with a dose of happy.
It is in the noticing. Promise.
01 September 2014
|and so the boxes start stacking.|
|tick tock the clock tells me to follow my heart = i am|
|my roads to travel ending here in galena = gratefully knowing|
|journey back to you. i am.|
|alter that will be glowing until we pack the truck.|
I have had several people (that hardly know me) comment this week on my dream of moving from beachy sunshine to Galena. Folks think I am crazy, comments like, "I thought Florida was your dream." Really are we allowed one dream? Not for me as long as I am luck enough to be alive I will dream daily. I will march in the direction that my heart and soul tell me to. I am a really hard worker and I know that anything is possible with hard work and faith.
So I really hope that those of you who follow me get this about me. I will always be dreaming big and moving mountains and trying my very best to inspire, give from my whole heart, be a good person and create like today is my last day.
Grateful for each and every step in this life. Loving and knowing and growing every single day!!!
27 August 2014
|downtown main street in Galena - charming historic art filled goodness = local|
|views from end of main street looking across the park|
|history is everywhere|
|driving into Galena in July. i took this picture. the view is never something you tire of.|
|Ulysses S. Grants home from 1865|
I am thrilled. Yes, I will miss a few friends, the ocean and warm weather, shrimp. I can visit and come back to splash in the ocean - and I will.
I have wanted to live in Galena since I was in 6th grade. Our class took a school trip on the yellow bus to tour the home of Ulysses S. Grant. I was immediately smitten with the history and charm that seemed to pour out of this little town. I grew up in a small river town called Camanche in Iowa. Camanche is one hour and 45 minutes away.
I am learning so much about myself and I am most grateful for all of it. I moved away from Iowa once I graduated from college. I have lived in mostly big cities for a very long time. I thought that I needed to live by the ocean. I did. I did it and now I know that I need more charm, history, seasons that change, community that I can feel and know. I need Galena. I am praying that Galena needs me.
So I continue to move those mountains. Be brave and shine = I am doing it. I am proud.
We have rented a beautiful historic home built in 1846. We will be packing our big truck up end of October and rolling into the fall weather and bonfires.
I am so grateful for my life. I am filled with creative spirit that will shine even brighter as I move across this beautiful country. Going back to a small river town knowing it is home.
Oh and my darling hubby has a wonderful new job waiting for him. So flipping proud of him. He is my best friend and love who totally gets me and how to live a full life.
photos above (except for the one i took) courtesy of the web images of Galena.
|dreaming bigger making it happen = moving another mountain|
|always knowing what really matters in life.|
i am in the middle of making a huge dream come true. my hubby is a huge part in making this happen with me. my little jrt pearl button is always by my side telling me i can do more hard things with great love.
so tonight i rest knowing that my world is unfolding in its perfect time and space. sure some things are rattled around from time to time, that is life. being alive allows us to dance around and grow our thinking = oh i am grateful for these gifts.
love sweet love.
23 August 2014
|shrine built surrounding my big dream of making top 50.|
|i love this book and this woman Lilla Rogers.|
|shrine. lilla rogers book, journal, painting, sacred heart, sacred feather for flying bigger and braver.|
|Lilla Rogers 2014 Global Talent Search|
I entered this contest created by the most talented Lilla Rogers and her team of brilliant folks. I have been a fan of Lilla's since living in Dallas Texas over 20 years ago. I respect her philosophy on life and talents. I believe in her thinking (very similar to mine) I covet her putting it out there in this world. I know that I will meet her one day in person and thank her for the gifts she brings to all artists.
For today I will continue to create, create, create and send it out into the world the only way I know how. Pour myself into the truth I know, create so much daily that it fuels passion in new ways, keep learning and discovering and being brave. Push fears and anxieties out of my path. Believe and know that my voice and art are meant to be heard. I am here to inspire, nurture, give love and be gracious to others and myself.
I say thank you to Lilla Rogers. I say thank you to my husband who embraces my year of making art and designing for me. Gratefully gushing is something I can never ever do enough of.
18 August 2014
|Somerset Studio Article = my passion for presentation|
|yes, my heart flipped with joy.|
|counting my blessings daily = knowing my passion|
|loving this article so grateful|
I have been marching towards lots of dreams this past year. Blazing new trails and facing fears like a crazy person. Knowing my heart and what I love. I am so lucky to have always known I was born to create. I feel very grateful that a sweet talented women Jana found my blog and my artwork. I have always been going to submit art. I even have it on my vision board for this year. Super karma at work Stampington found me.
I ended up sending Jana my piece of art that she liked from my blog with a how to. This artwork will be features in Art Apprentice September 2014. Super duper lucky that I packaged the art in my most happy pants fashion (I simply adore packaging, wrapping and all of the details you can add to a treat)
So not only will I have my piece of art published soon but, they loved my packaging so here it is in Somerset Studio.
I am noticing the shift of love for what I create in myself. I am more gracious with my knowing my path is right in the perfect time and space.
Bonus, I love the color orange and it is happily all over this article. He he he!!!
03 August 2014
|mixing it up. i have been my entire life.|
|knowing simple can be stunning.|
|appreciating every little thing i can.|
Yes, I want to be in the top 50 you bet. I want each and every assignment. I want to show myself that I have arrived to the table of "noticing". Yes, I want to be noticed for my art, my giddy positive joy that fills me up each day when I am lucky enough to wake up and create.
So on this fine Sunday eve I am super happy to be looking at this fine week and celebrating on the 5th = the day I get my first assignment.
Let's go. Let's play. Let's create. Let's know that sharing creative energy is pure raw goodness!!!